My name is Robert. I'm 18. I live with two awesome roommates! I love a lot of things but video games is on top of them! Especially The Legend of Zelda. :)
Ugh. I’m bored so I decide hey let me start watching Grey’s Anatomy. I really liked that show.
An hour later here’s the waterworks and I pretty much just wanna die now.
If I could be granted the power to use one spell from Harry Potter the spell I’d use would definetly be obliviate.
I wanna forget everyone that’s hurt me too much,moved on,or forgotten about me. It just hurts too bad somedays.
I’ve actually been in the mood to read and watch Harry Potter since I’ve only read first 3 books and seen first and last 2 movies but damn are they expensive.
Maybe one day I’ll be rich.
Zelda,oh how you just said the wrong sentence about friendship. It got me thinking. Ugh.
I miss everything we had and what it was going to be. We were the three musketeers or I felt like that anyways. And I screwed it up. I can’t help but blame myself lately. These past few nights(well when I’m here and not working for the worlds biggest dick) I just cant help but cry and think about it.
I thought I was over it I mean hell I cant change the past and hey it was a 50/25/25 kind of thing in some sort of way all of us chose it but still I cant help but just blame myself lately.
I’ve learned this: Sometimes doing the right thing is not always the right thing to do.
I just feel like everything changed so rapidly.
I’ve lost quite a few friends over this,some friendships changed,and just in general blech.
While this is probaly a better situation in more ways in some ways it isn’t. I need to get over this but right now and I have a feeling for a while it’s going to be stuck in my heart.
At least I know of one thing that’ll never change.
My favorite number. 99.
There’s just no hope for some people. Sometimes giving up on people is the stronger thing to do. But I just cant seem to get that through your pretty little head so guess what? I give up on you.
Off to work for another 8 and a half hours of my life at midnight. Off Sunday night thank heavens.
40 hours this week ugh. Wouldnt be so bad if it wasnt under “training” under that stupid douchebag and they kept me same shift. Wednsdays going to suck major sweaty hairy balls.
If only they replaced you then everything would be A-ok. Well B ok but I can handle B’s. lol Right now we’re at D’s.
Taking a quick nap before.
I dont understand. I dont understand how two people can be so freakin evil and seem to have no heart. Such shady people that like to cause and see pain on others. I believe everyone has a little evil in them. Everyone has the urge to do bad. But these two are definetly out of the ordinary. One already got me I just didnt completely realize it.
The second one’s gunning after me. And dude if you win you definetly wont “win” because I’ll make your life a living hell. Your ass will be mine. You’ll be sorry. I will definetly win in the end.
I’m tired of taking it from everyone. Look where thats gotten me. Forced to have to move back in with my granny.
I have a new word in my vocabulary. Revenge. If you mess with me,I’ll mess with you twice as hard. You’ll be sorry for effin with me. Stupid people.
I’ve come to the conclusion 19 out of 20 people suck. Maybe even more but right now thats my conclusion.
Man today’s just been an awful day for me.
I want to hate you,and theres days I think I do and then theres days I just cant hate you. You did nothing to me directly although these repraccusions(yep spelled wrong I know) definetly suck and I’m definetly suffering from them.
Things were not suppose to be this way. Not suppose to be this way at all and its all because of you they are. And everyone else hates you so why cant I? Because while I’m not saying what you did was right it wasnt nothing towards me,and in the beginning you didnt mean to hurt her. You didnt want this to happen. It was my big mouth thats partly to blame that all this went down. You’re not a horrible person especially not nearly as horrible as people make you out to be,but still there’s days I just cant help but feel a little or sometimes even a lot of hatred towards you. You’re so messed up but hell everyone is I’m so messed up too. I hate my mixed feelings I wish I could just have one freakin solid feeling towards you,towards each individual,hell towards life in general and stick with that. But everyday things change,people change and unfortunately feelings change.
Friends forever? Pfftt. When one makes a promise such as this keep it. Otherwise dont make the promise. It just fucks up and hurts everyone later on down the road. I get attached way too easily and get dependent way too easily. And when the people I’m attached too and depended on are gone I’m a lost puppy once again. I just wish I could reverse back time and change it. I wish things were how they were suppose to be. Not how they are now.
Don’t get me wrong. Living over here is all swell and dandy and no complaints but I don’t look up to and depend on them as much as I did to y’all. This puts my list up to five people I’ve lost like this and it looks like the number will be eight soon. What’s the sad part? If it gets to eight people,six of the people on the list will be in some way related and because of you. Six damn people.
I pray it won’t happen but I can see signs it’s about to.
I just wish my heart was stone cold. A good friend keeps warning me if people don’t stop pretty soon it will be. Maybe that wont be such a bad thing. No feelings in life sound pretty appealing right now. Because my feelings just seem to get hurt,squished and disregarded.
Heres the end of my rant for the day. I feel a little bit better typing it all out instead of keeping it all in.
